Archive | January, 2013

Like Opening Presents After Christmas…

13 Jan


It’s a lovely sunny saturday afternoon. 

I’m feeling pretty accomplished because unpacking is going well. 

It’s been two weeks since I’ve left Singapore.

But, can I say that it feels like forever?

Yet the “joys” of unpacking,

The “joys” of school and hard work,

Clocking into a routine,

It’s starting to feel like home again.


Do Somersaults If You Find Your World Turned Upside-Down

7 Jan

3 years ago, if you had come up to me and told me that I would live in Germany for half a year, travel around Europe, live in Singapore for more than just the summer holidays, have baby twin sisters, enter a relationship with a Singaporean-Malaysian (of all things. i kid! lol), go through an amazingly speedy recovery after meningitis, and end up back in Vancouver in 2013… I would have looked at you like you were crazy.

To call the past couple of years of my life smooth and predictable couldn’t be any further from the truth.

What I’ve learnt is that we might think we are in constant control of our lives, but one day, all that could flip around. Whatever we’ve tried so hard to accomplish can shatter, in just an instant.

What do we do when we find our world turned upside down?

Well…we do somersaults of course 🙂

We can take unforeseen events in our stride; we could go even further by seeing it as something beautiful, as something that will be an extrinsic part of our lives. Perhaps even something that would bring about a significant change. Everything happens for a reason.

When things don’t go as we plan it to, we often regret and wish we’d done things differently. We feel broken, confused, and cannot help but question how and if our lives can still be beautiful.


I am reminded of a kaleidoscope. It’s name, of Greek origin, means “beautiful form to see”. Take mirrors, random beads, or broken colored glass, and construct them in a not-too-complicated fashion. Oh, the colors and patterns contained in that single tube! Don’t you think its beautiful too? 🙂

I guess that’s how I view my life. I often feel helpless and confused at situations I find myself in, especially more so because I feel like I’ve been flung into certain circumstances. But, I’ve always found an incredible amount of grace, no matter what place I might find myself in.

While I was stuck in a burger-flipping job in the summer of 2011, I’d never thought I would get a call from adidas Germany regarding a resume I had sent in at the beginning of the year (which I had in fact already forgotten about), and end up working and living in Nurnberg for half a year. When I faced the repeated rejection of a work visa/student internship visa in Singapore, I’d never thought I’d end up volunteering full-time, going for cell, and meeting a now very special person in my life. While I was in my last one half months in Singapore preparing for my departure to Japan, I’d never thought I’d fall ill and be hospitalized, feel so much love from friends and family, learn to treasure my relationships with all my loved ones so much, and end up back in Vancouver.

My life is a bunch of broken bits of glass; some here, some there. In spite of the ever-changing plans and unexpected turn of events, I have a firm assurance and belief that my life is in God’s hands.

“Many are the plans in the mind of a man,but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand.”

(Proverbs 19:21)